Sometimes I leave you alone

These last days I've been asking myself whether I should write or not, it's a big decision to take because we never know what the one who reads what you write is thinking. It is even harder to try thinking about what is inside of the other's mind because whether you like it or not, you will always find yourself inside a big loop of situations that might or might not happen.

All of these situations are sometimes nasty, horrible creatures looking for a space in your mind where they can locate themselves and wake you up when you sleep in the middle of the night just because they find it fun to make you feel like shit, make you feel like you did everything wrong and you just suck so much you deserve to fall out of bed. I don't even know if these creatures are different sizes according to how often you imagine them but one thing I know is that the creatures will never go unless you let go all of those thoughts you have throughout the day.

The music is playing slowly while the world keeps spinning round and round and I start thinking not about the creatures in my mind but about the song that played through my headphones: "didn't I just hear this?", my playlist is getting bigger with songs I will probably listen to when I'm out, walking to my house or to the woods.

Weather is also getting the way I like it: gray. Because gray for me means that you can finally take a nap in the afternoon and not feel guilty because the sun is already gone. It means you can finally drink hot coffee and not start sweating like a marathon runner. It means that you should be the one who takes the bull by the horns and start killing all those nasty creatures inside your mind.

I say bye with a clic.
Xoxo